Peace be with you

This morning we went to church and had a nice, quiet time. Often I teach Lauren's Sunday school class or David is an usher, but today we were able to sit together as a family (except Jake - who does much better in the kid play room). One of the common phrases in the Catholic Church is "Peace be with you." I've repeated this many times during the meet-and-greet section of church without really considering the meaning behind the phrase.

Today, perhaps I was feeling more spiritual than usual, but the phrase really resonated with me. I have been praying for peace and trusting that "..And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Phillipians 4:7. While I don't understand why Taylor will have a harder road than some, I'm trying to trust that her life will be wonderful.

Now I am praying that Taylor will be at peace and her journey will be joyful, even if she has to work a little harder. I want her to always know that she is loved, special, and oh so precious. I'm praying that Lauren and Jake will also have peace and that Taylor's extra medical care and related stresses do not become a burden on them. I see them cuddling her, making her laugh and loving her and I want to bottle that feeling up for them to hold on to forever. I pray that David and I will find peace from worry and trust that Taylor's life will be wonderful - whatever it might bring. I pray that we will continue to have a united front and be each other's biggest supporters. So, "peace be with you" means a little something more to me today.

A few days ago, after picking up her medical records, I spent some time on the Internet - oh, what a big mistake. I was searching on terms in her records and sufficiently freaked myself out. I really should learn to stay away from the Internet and wait to see what the specialists have to say. Anyway, the excess information sent me into a bit of a funk, but we had a really nice week-end so I'm feeling better.

Taylor is back on track sleep-wise - hooray! She's sleeping through the night again and we're all much happier. Any time I let myself worry I only need to see her smile and her eyes light up and I really do think she'll be fine. We're hoping to learn more info over the next few weeks as we meet with various specialists, but I'm planning on holding on to her smile and bright eyes regardless of what the next few weeks bring.